Yes, there has been a dearth of posts here lately ... and I am afraid I cannot put it down only to the slightly harried work schedule lately. Part of it is, frankly, that I am at sixes and sevens about the Delfig thing, and it makes me wonder about the effort it takes to put this campaign together.
It is less than easy to write and write out the various descriptions, and build them towards things that can be played on-line. For the most part I enjoy myself - but it can be work, like any DM who has found himself at the beginning of a night's play who is without the 'spark' needed to make it a good one. I start with some mornings without a lot of creativity, and I start some weeks thinking that I should chuck it.
On the other hand, it has been enormously fun, and creative, and I have even managed to teach myself some things about campaign design.
But when I find myself having contributed to the creation of something which then clearly has no respect for this campaign or for the creation itself, I cannot help but be stunned. And of late, these last few days, the motivation has not been there.
I do not ask for advice, but I would like to know what the existing players think about the doings around here, about Delfig's suicide, about their own 'will to play' and how they have been affected by it. It would help to get me grounded and into a head space where I could run again.